Forgiveness is futile

I'd much rather spend my empty moments contemplating politics and the state of the world than have to pay attention to the complicated voting process going on in the darkest corners of my mind. If my inner turmoil was to show it's seedy face, others would be scared into insanity. If the one I truly love was to know what I did for him, the sadness I spared him, I know he'd forgive but I have to carry the curse of knowledge alone. The secret dies with me , my apple is hidden well. Best to drowned in your pasts resentment than to swim in their tears. My life will be too short to finish. Best we never started.

Sacrificing your happiness for the happiness of the one you love, is by far, the truest type of love.